Even得病了，生老病死的消息无处不在，可是如果突然降临在身边的人身上，尤其是那么年轻的生命，还是会另我们措手不及扼腕叹息吧。于是一群人在群里叽里呱啦商量如何开导她，我心想，如果真的严重到生死攸关，任何开导都无济于事的吧。旁人只能给你一些鼓励安慰，要真正接受和面对的还是那个自己。最后结果出来，早期红斑狼疮，虽不能根治，但是起码可以控制，大家又都舒一口气。

我查了下这个病，一辈子都要活的小心翼翼，要尽量避免紫外线，天哪，如果真的连太阳都不能晒，天天呆在家里，不能再去世界各地旅行，不能去徒步不能去尽情流汗…如果我得了这样的病，我能接受么？我想我不能，可是最终也就不得不接受了吧。

最大的别离是死亡，最大的爱是示予实相。我们的教育里从来没有关于生命和死亡的课程，我们的文化里又对此避而不谈，于是人就一辈子活在追求恒常的幻象里。

Hi My dear girls:

How are you ?
I’m sitting in the sunset and writing you email during my classes. Yes,as I told you before that I can teach online class at home now,which is great because sometimes we have no show then I can do whatever I want in this 45 minutes. I usually do some yoga or read some books.But I still go to the office twice a week to say hi to colleagues. I’ve been working for this company for more than one month and I would say I feel comfortable with it now. It’s true that things don’t go as you plan.I thought of teaching IELTES ,Chinese and teaching in a school but I never expect being an online teacher and work at home. But there’s a condition that I have to work till 11p.m,which is ok if you are used to it.So this is the best part of the job. The bad thing is it just rely too much on the Internet.There are virous types of the technical problems so you really have to spend time to help the students solve it and some other students complain about time wasted because it’s a group lesson.It’s difficult to make the balance. I really hope that people can be more understanding.Students are asked to score the class according to teacher’s performance. You know at the beginning I was quite confident to get the high score. But I overestimated myself. My average score is just a bit higher the passing line to get the bonus.To be honest I was disappointed at first.I realized that It’s difficult to build the rapport with the students by teaching online because the students are different every time. Then I started to adjust the teaching approach and try to satisfy them using the way they like.I think this is a road to practice for me and it helps to polish a more patient and modest me. Although, I’m often frustrated when speechless moments happen.

So， that’s my job.

Talking about life……

I spend a lot time reading books and watching movies.I actually really enjoy being alone but sometimes I’m thinking if I miss the social life.You see, I see my new colleagues twice a week and even if I go to the office,we still spend the whole day teaching and have little to talk to each other. My friends, when I’m working they are resting and when I’m resting they are working. Sometimes we have chance to share each other’s life but I feel we are far from each other you know. When they are talking about their husband and babies,when they keep posting the photo of the food they eat everyday,when they are talking about the housing and car loan……sometimes I pretend I’ m also interested and involved but actually I’m not. To be honest I can’t imagine myself living with a man! Boyfriend is ok but I’m always not lucky in this part you know.

I was asked if I want to go back to Chiangmai and I said no. I don’t miss the city but I really miss the time we shared together.People come people go and life continues. I wish you the best of the best:)

Write me more about your life ok?