时隔7年即将开启第二次内观

这次出行丢三落四的。毛巾,保温杯,乳液都没带!昨晚睡了卧铺,车厢里的男人打呼,睡不太踏实,不过依然还是喜欢在铁轨上摇着摇着听着哐当哐当的声音入睡。

翻了一下朋友圈,上一次是2014年的05.28结束了我的第一次内观。今天是6月2号。时隔了七年。

这七年里,大概每年心血来潮会打坐10次左右,不过也在陆陆续续做瑜伽,再加上近年来灵性产业蓬勃发展,所以也没有特别陌生的感觉。

连续10天不说话,早睡早起,甚至过午不食,这些对我都不会特别困难,至于每次坐一个小时,这就要到时候看了身体的变化了。

国内的中心虽然不像东南亚那些鸟语花香,木头房子,充满了属于热带的浪漫的放松的气息,这里的建筑规规矩矩,但也是干净,安静,有序的。

碰到一个年级和我妈妈差不多大的学员,阿姨已经第五次参加了,特别喜欢。她赞叹我年纪那么轻就接触了这个,我也赞叹她,说我妈就完全不能接受说我被别人骗😓。

怀旧的胶州火车站
真美
内观中心

悲智双运

1.

20141113-141255.jpg这几天看的「项塔兰」中的场景

2.在缅甸,和几位缅甸大叔的探路之旅的最后一天,这一天的行程中有一段是坐在牛车上穿越还未有游客踏足的小村庄。也许是我的位置不对,在牛车上坐了十分钟后感觉颠地我骨头也快散架了于是要求下车步行。我走在车后面跟着,看着瘦弱的牛儿在在起伏的鞭子的驱策下奋力地拉着这一车男人往前迈着步子。Kenny 叫我上车我也不愿意。后来实在是在这除了尘土飞扬便再无其它的乡村小道上走累了才又重新上了车。他像是读懂我心事似的跟我娓娓道来,这个村子的农民很苦,没有旅游资源,收入基本靠林中伐木,人们天未亮便驱牛上山,可怜的牛一天要拉着远比几个成年人重得多的分量的木头上山下山。如果这里的旅游业真的能发展起来,那牛和村民的日子都能改善许多。

3. 在郎奔寺给觉尘姐做翻译时,她对阿姜说她以前看见穿丝质的衣服的人都本能地生气厌恶之心,后来在一次行禅时才忆起小时候见过剥茧抽丝的残忍情景一直留在脑海深处才有此反应。阿姜说,对蝉生起慈悲心的同时,也要对剥蝉的人升起同样的慈悲心啊。

4. 前几天我偷偷把爸爸买回家要杀的甲鱼偷偷放了,一方面觉得这动物有灵性不忍其被杀,一方面也不想让爸爸造这个业。原本以为至多被家里人训斥几句,没想到招来妈妈的破口大骂,貌似是这么多年她第一次对我如此恶言相向,甚至说出了你让甲鱼活要你爸死吗?这样严重的话。因为爸爸身体差本意是要买个甲鱼回来补身体。哭完一包纸巾后冷静下来想想,在因缘不具足的情况下这样的做法的确欠妥。

到底是要有怎样的智慧,才能升起这真正的无有差别的慈悲心啊!

收到远方朋友的来信最开心了

有时候懒得静下心写一篇博客,还好回复邮件的耐心依然还在,那就拿过来权当除草吧。

Hey I didn’t expect to get your reply because I assumed that you are still in the temple or the email address is wrong… Anyway,it’s so nice to hear from you. I’m so happy to know your life in CM! Please write more to me next time although you thought people should speak less haha.

Yeah I went to the Chinese temple and stayed there for a month. At first I couldn’t get used to it because the temple locates in the deep mountain so the accommodation standard is lower than Wat Lumpem:almost 20 people share a room,you have to go out of the room and climb some steps to get to the tolit, no enough living water… After I went through this stage I met the new question.Buddhism in mainland China is very different from what in Thailand. I was very confused because they seem to be against each other. Then after talking or reading the books of masters I understood that there are thousands of approaches of being a believer. There’s no right or wrong,but suitable or not. That’s why we say Buddha is so brilliant, he use different ways to teach different people.
So ,,yeah, I really appreciate the experience both in Thailand and in China. I was back to Shanghai two month ago and I’m an online English teacher now. Time to take the new challenge, I mean now I’m surrounded by people who are not so into spiritual life. I always question myself these days. So I have to be very aware to keep my mind calm like you said.I practice by doing my work well and keep the mercy to people including myself because everyone is suffering. I do sitting meditation in the morning maybe three times a week. I try to do it everyday but the life is not as regular as it in the temple so it’s a bit hard to persist. But I’ll try.

Well.. I ‘d like to say thank you again for what you taught me in the temple and let’s keep in touch:)

Illy
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On 2014年10月6日, at 下午7:59, Jeanine Thaïlande wrote:

Hi Illy,

I’m pretty well and I’m not in the temple anymore.I decided to support myself by working in my friend’s coffee company in Chiang Mai.I still got plenty of time to practice even if my mind is disturb by the outside I keep on.I’ve got the opportunity to give some dharma talking around me specially to the women I’m working with.After 1 month of listening to her complaining for the same thing,I ask her that from now on,we will work in silence.As she thinks that she doesn’t have time to go to the temple or to pray,being aware of what she is doing on the here and now,it will be a way to do some meditation .She understood for the benefit of each of us.People don’t realise they are speaking too much and loosing their mindfullness.

And you,how are you?What are you doing?Did you go to the temple to learn about budhisism?
Wish you all the best.

Jeanine

2014-10-06 11:05 GMT+07:00 Illy Fu :
Hi Jeanine,

How are you? Are you still in the temple?
Wish you all the best.

Illy
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